https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/expel To expel is to drive out And so dear reader, this post is brought to you by the driving out of demons, specifically those demonic spirits that accompany grief and loss..they hang around and bring their unwanted friends, like guilt and shame and blame. Those little bastards like to position themselves in the corners…
The Greek philosopher Heraclitus is credited with the idea that the only constant in life is change. Only fragments of his writings remain, one in which he says: Everything changes and nothing remains still; and you cannot step twice into the same stream.– Source If you read the previous post, then you are seeing a…
Today should be my 11th anniversary..but I don’t even know if that exists now that Mark has passed. This was another quiet day of reflection, like the last 3 anniversaries.. The torrent of grief lessens the further I get away from that day in July of 2020..and in it’s wake is an empty space that…
I’ve been away from this blog for awhile, I had many post ideas, but when it came to type them out, I couldn’t. The words seem to leave as I sat down to write. And so I just left it blank, left the blog in a silent state, while trying to live another day. Except…
Well friends, it seems I’ve been negligent with my posting duties here, but in reality, life throws lots of curveballs at us and sometimes things fall through the cracks. But this is as good of a time as any, so as always, Happy New Year to all my readers (are there any out there?). However,…
Life does go on, but that’s always a bitter pill for a widow/widower. Somewhere in dark tunnel of grief, a light will eventually begin to shine. Entranced by that light, I scrambled from the darkness, intent on it shining on my face; but the sad truth is that no matter how fully I bathe in…
On the advice of a fellow friend and widow, I picked up a book, a grief journal titled “How to Carry What Can’t Be Fixed”. It’s a grief journal, with lots of guidance and writing and drawing prompts. It’s written by Megan Devine, the author of “It’s OK That You’re Not OK”. I have that…
It’s time for another installment in my series of “uns” Today, let’s talk about Unfinished: Since my husband died very unexpectedly, I have had to deal with many unfinished tasks, but there’s also the fact that I am living an unfinished life and feeling like an unfinished person. Recently, I finished a major unfinished task.…
Today is 2 years since my husband passed. 2 years since I heard him call my name. 2 years since I felt his warmth as he embraced me. 2 years since we snuggled on the couch and talked. 2 years since his lips and mine touched. 2 years since I felt at peace and we…
It’s cliche and trite, but the 2nd year of a child’s life is usually referred to as the “terrible 2’s” – it’s the developmental stage where toddlers are starting to explore their environment and encounter challenges that they are not developed enough yet to process, this results in tantrums, mood swings, and defiance. All of…